Before we get started please read Isaiah 42:16-17, Isaiah 43:1-2, and last but not least Isaiah 45:3.
In 1975 back in a town called St.Clair, Michigan, in the hospital after I had lost a baby I desperately wanted, the Lord came into my hospital room and spoke these verses to me. It was Valentines Day and it had been especially difficult because they had to put me in the maternity ward right across from the delivery room. I remember that day very well. A neighbor friend of mine was delivering her child and I could hear quite a bit, especially the joy when the baby was born. The pain and ache of my heart was so acute that the pain shot up to my neck. To make matters worse, my husband was in the emergency room in another city being treated in the ER for an injuring he received at work. He couldn't be there with me. My Pastor at the time came and prayed with me, but it wasn't the same as having your husband there to share the grief. Several months after this incident the Lord gave me the melody for a song to write these verses to. So many times my heart would cry out Lord why? Why? What have I done wrong to have this happen? Several months later while trying to have another baby, a dear friend of mine pulled me aside one Sunday after church and told me that she was expecting. I smiled and made sure I stayed together, but once I got in the car I lost it. Again why God? Why are you doing this to me? What have I done? The word pain was always a word I ran from. I would do anything to avoid it. Never realizing that I was getting ready to know pain in a whole different way and I had no place to run or hide. No doctor could remove the pain or give me something to numb it. God was getting ready to take me into the Valley of the Shadow of Death.
Then in 1995 I went through 5 years of the "dark night of the soul." Talk about pain, having a baby was less painful and I had 4 wonderful boys. Not all at once!!! Just thought I had better clarify that last statement. LOL! There was some real soul searching and things I found out about myself that floored me and I didn't like. It was ugly and again very painful. I had to face them honestly and there was no where to run and no one to blame. As I faced these areas in my life there were times when I felt suicide was the only way out. Just to get away from the ever present emotional pain that at times would become physical. Those were some of the worst days I ever had in my life. Sometimes during the night I would walk the streets in the country till 3 or 4 in the morning screaming God, where are you? I can't face anymore of this alone. I just can't. I felt totally abandoned by Him. I felt like he had gone on a permanent vacation and liked it so much he wasn't going to return. Then one day, the Holy Spirit came and spoke to me and said, "if Jesus bore your burdens and feels your pain and you want to be like Him, then you have to walk in His foot steps. He is the great intercessor. He is always presenting you before the Father with your pain and concerns. Remember He feels your emotions because if you are made in His image, then He has emotions too. If your heart truly is to be like Him and have His character and nature, then this is necessary in your life. He is not doing this to kill you, but He is answering the cry of your heart. Haven't you prayed Jesus I want to be just like you? I don't just want your name but I want you. Ellie that is what He is doing in your life. Through these difficult circumstances the song that Jesus gave you years ago is being worked in. You are finding the treasures in darkness and the hidden riches." Now being honest, at the time the Holy Spirit spoke that to me I wasn't impressed. But gradually I realized that the pain that I had emotionally and physically gone through was not always there as before. I began to see some of the treasures in the darkness I was going through and actually began to appreciate them.
I never would have gained substance or learned what it was like to feel rejection, pain etc., if I had not gone through that experience. Would I want to go through it again, absolutely not, but in the darkness I did find treasures. Isaiah 45:3.
We say we want to be like Jesus and we say we "know" that there is a cost. But have we ever really looked at what the cost might be. Read Isaiah 53. That is one of my favorite chapters. We need to honestly realize what Jesus went through. Or is it just a "story" that you read about especially during Lent or Easter. You know the highest calling is the calling of an intercessor. Jesus is always before His father making intercession for us. Romans 8:26,27 and 34. That should comfort our hearts. I know it does mine. :) You can't be an intercessor without feeling the heart and the emotions of Papa God. How can you effectively pray for someone? All those painful experiences that I have gone through have made me see the treasures in my dark times. As I allowed Papa God to bring me through, I have gained substance so that when someone else is going through a similar experience as I have, I could honestly help them and they knew I had been where they are at. People know when the words you share are empty and there is no life.
While waiting last night to an intercessors meeting I felt drawn to Isaiah 53. As I began to read I was drawn to verse 5 the last sentence. It says, "and by His wounds we are healed." All of a sudden my heart responded with a big "YES." At that moment I realized that the wounds that He has healed in my heart can literally set others free and their wounds can be healed also. It made all those dark and lonely, dismal days worth it. It would be terrible to go through something and not learn or get the treasures that are in the dark times. Those treasures are priceless. Talk about Health Care. Wow!! If the wounds he took for us can heal us, then why can't the wounds that He has healed in us not heal others? They can!!!! Again you will not only have healing, but you will have substance to give to someone else and the joy of watching that person regain hope and healing for their situation as you share. Where their eyes were full of pain, you can have the joy of seeing light come into their them again. Like I previously said, would I want to go through those days again, a big huge NO. But it is wonderful to look back and see that those experiences were not wasted but became "treasures in my darkness."
One last thought. Jer.29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Thank you for listening once again.
Experiencing Jesus,
Ellie
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Monday, February 7, 2011
Unity Part 2
Yesterday we talked about Unity and how as the Body of Christ we are so un-unified. Well today we are talking about another culture that is definitely unified and dangerous. Alot of Christians haven't even considered this culture or have just skimmed it over as not a threat to them, their families, or their society. In their camp there is alot of turmoil, but when there is a cause, they come together as one to see satans purposes fulfilled.
I'm talking about the Satanists or those caught into Satanic Religious Abuse. My husband and I have been involved, quite by accident, with a young mother and her daughter who are caught by "family" into this evil wicked culture. Since Oct. of 2009 we have been on the internet with them just about everyday. Sometimes 16 hrs at a time. Depending on the circumstances they are going through. Wow what we have learned and let me tell you it is more than frightening. My husband Bill has been working with a young woman in the states for 7 years and he has had other encounters in Canada his home land where Satanic cults are more open than here in the states. But let me tell you the devil is out for the souls of our kids and he will do whatever he has too to get it. We have had demons tell us flat out that they are out to destroy the soul of this child we are dealing with who by the way is only 6. They have much younger. They use the children and go after them because of their innocence. With a child they can program and the child would not know any difference. Because children so trust, they go along with whatever they are told by whoever the adult is that is working with them. Usually a relative, uncle, aunt, grandmother, someone they would trust. They spend hours tearing down everything we say to them about Jesus and they use torture everytime the word of Jesus is mentioned. This is not some science fiction movie, this is the real world of the satanic.
The mother has been involved since birth and has tried several times to get out, but the cult has found her and had her come back to punishment you can't even begin to describe. They have threatened us in many ways. But my husband Bill and I both remember the day when God literally made a place for them in our hearts. Their biggest fear is of us leaving them, so we constantly remind them that we are not going anywhere. We try to give them hope in a hellish situation. I keep saying to them the scripture that, "even in hell I am there." Angels have showed up several times and helped them escape, but it has usually been with intercessors praying for them. If one can put a thousand to flight and two ten thousand, I wonder what an Army of One could do.
The thing that is so overwhelming at times is that these are just 2. There are thousands that are trapped and have no one to turn to for a way of escape. The leaders of these cults are doctors and lawyers and nurses. Police and even government officials such as judges are caught up in this. Like I said it is frightening. There is a situation right now where in a neighboring country the mother and daughter are going through this horror to.
Why am I telling you all this? Because number one this is a field white for harvest and it is only going be broken and the gates of hell come down as we band together as teams or as units as in an army. WE MUST UNITE AS ONE. Do you want to know about unity among their camps? While dealing with these demonic activities over seas we have experienced first hand how unified they are. Once during a 12 hour session, and I mean 12 hours, we were praying and asking the Lord to send his angels of war to come to where they were and help them escape, we found out that they had sent out word, and how they do that I won't even tell you, and that "intercessors" were surrounding the house and "praying" their prayers so that nothing and no one could help them. To get the Body of Christ or intercessors together now a days, is like pulling teeth. Christians have had the attitude that, well they made a decision somewhere along the way and its their problem. Excuse me, first of all some of them were born into this horror. Can't make a decision when you are just a couple of days old and they use you for satanic rituals now can you? And lets look at the ones who did decide to get involved. The enemy never comes and shows you the horror of sin. He alures you in little by little until you are in a web caught and no way out. You think it is a good organization and then find out when its too late that your in a trap and could lose your life or someone in your family could lose their life if you try to get out. Where were the Christians who are supposed to know their God and do great exploits in helping these people? So many young people have been caught into this society because of the hunger of wanting to be a part of something. We as the Body of Christ are guilty of hiding our head in the sand or somewhere else. Sorry!!!! But it is true. We as Christians have become so self obsorbed and into our own lives, that we literally have no idea as to what is going on around us. I know not everybody is like this, but the majority of the Body of Christ is. It saddens me.
A few years ago when Harry Potter came out some wonderful friends of mine and myself went to the first movie. As I entered the room where the movie was showing, the Lord spoke to me and said, "watch the children closely and I will show you something." So I did. At first nothing much was going on with the kids, but as the movie continued I saw the children start to sit on the edge of their seats. They were listening to every spell that was spoken. I heard the Lord say, "these children are called to be my future prophets and prophetess and the enemy knows that, so he is doing all he can to capture them while they are young. Many will go home and try these spells and they will work." I literally felt sick to my stomach. Sure enough the next morning, the headlines of this cities paper said, "Children try the Spells they saw in the Harry Potter Movie." As I read the article I felt sick because some of these children were using spells they had heard and they worked. What do you think that said to that child? And do you think the enemy stood by and just watched. He shook with laughter and glee knowing that he had another one.
I have had to work through the horror of realizing that these demomic cults that are being raised up all over the world, truly believe in their master satan. They will die for him and for each other, being told that hell is heaven and that heaven is hell. They are so programmed and warped in their thinking and convinced of what they believe they will die for their cause. They will kill and destroy anything and anyone in their path, that will cause satans purposes to not be fulfilled in someone, government or in a country etc. They will band together wherever and whenever necessary to "pray." Doesn't matter what time of day or night. Their intercessors and prophets are committed to see Satans Kingdom come on earth. How committed is the Body of Christ?
Well enough said I guess. As you can tell it is a real burden on my heart. As we continue to try and help these girls and children my heart inside continues to cry out, "Papa how long and what is it going to take for the Body of Christ to get organized and be united to the extent of what I am seeing in satans kingdom. And more importantly do we have time?" Its here in the states too. Infact during one of the sessions we had with the girls, they had brought over someone from the states who was teaching them military programming. Scarey or what.
Will we ever be an "Army of One?" I wonder.......
Experiencing Jesus,
Ellie
I'm talking about the Satanists or those caught into Satanic Religious Abuse. My husband and I have been involved, quite by accident, with a young mother and her daughter who are caught by "family" into this evil wicked culture. Since Oct. of 2009 we have been on the internet with them just about everyday. Sometimes 16 hrs at a time. Depending on the circumstances they are going through. Wow what we have learned and let me tell you it is more than frightening. My husband Bill has been working with a young woman in the states for 7 years and he has had other encounters in Canada his home land where Satanic cults are more open than here in the states. But let me tell you the devil is out for the souls of our kids and he will do whatever he has too to get it. We have had demons tell us flat out that they are out to destroy the soul of this child we are dealing with who by the way is only 6. They have much younger. They use the children and go after them because of their innocence. With a child they can program and the child would not know any difference. Because children so trust, they go along with whatever they are told by whoever the adult is that is working with them. Usually a relative, uncle, aunt, grandmother, someone they would trust. They spend hours tearing down everything we say to them about Jesus and they use torture everytime the word of Jesus is mentioned. This is not some science fiction movie, this is the real world of the satanic.
The mother has been involved since birth and has tried several times to get out, but the cult has found her and had her come back to punishment you can't even begin to describe. They have threatened us in many ways. But my husband Bill and I both remember the day when God literally made a place for them in our hearts. Their biggest fear is of us leaving them, so we constantly remind them that we are not going anywhere. We try to give them hope in a hellish situation. I keep saying to them the scripture that, "even in hell I am there." Angels have showed up several times and helped them escape, but it has usually been with intercessors praying for them. If one can put a thousand to flight and two ten thousand, I wonder what an Army of One could do.
The thing that is so overwhelming at times is that these are just 2. There are thousands that are trapped and have no one to turn to for a way of escape. The leaders of these cults are doctors and lawyers and nurses. Police and even government officials such as judges are caught up in this. Like I said it is frightening. There is a situation right now where in a neighboring country the mother and daughter are going through this horror to.
Why am I telling you all this? Because number one this is a field white for harvest and it is only going be broken and the gates of hell come down as we band together as teams or as units as in an army. WE MUST UNITE AS ONE. Do you want to know about unity among their camps? While dealing with these demonic activities over seas we have experienced first hand how unified they are. Once during a 12 hour session, and I mean 12 hours, we were praying and asking the Lord to send his angels of war to come to where they were and help them escape, we found out that they had sent out word, and how they do that I won't even tell you, and that "intercessors" were surrounding the house and "praying" their prayers so that nothing and no one could help them. To get the Body of Christ or intercessors together now a days, is like pulling teeth. Christians have had the attitude that, well they made a decision somewhere along the way and its their problem. Excuse me, first of all some of them were born into this horror. Can't make a decision when you are just a couple of days old and they use you for satanic rituals now can you? And lets look at the ones who did decide to get involved. The enemy never comes and shows you the horror of sin. He alures you in little by little until you are in a web caught and no way out. You think it is a good organization and then find out when its too late that your in a trap and could lose your life or someone in your family could lose their life if you try to get out. Where were the Christians who are supposed to know their God and do great exploits in helping these people? So many young people have been caught into this society because of the hunger of wanting to be a part of something. We as the Body of Christ are guilty of hiding our head in the sand or somewhere else. Sorry!!!! But it is true. We as Christians have become so self obsorbed and into our own lives, that we literally have no idea as to what is going on around us. I know not everybody is like this, but the majority of the Body of Christ is. It saddens me.
A few years ago when Harry Potter came out some wonderful friends of mine and myself went to the first movie. As I entered the room where the movie was showing, the Lord spoke to me and said, "watch the children closely and I will show you something." So I did. At first nothing much was going on with the kids, but as the movie continued I saw the children start to sit on the edge of their seats. They were listening to every spell that was spoken. I heard the Lord say, "these children are called to be my future prophets and prophetess and the enemy knows that, so he is doing all he can to capture them while they are young. Many will go home and try these spells and they will work." I literally felt sick to my stomach. Sure enough the next morning, the headlines of this cities paper said, "Children try the Spells they saw in the Harry Potter Movie." As I read the article I felt sick because some of these children were using spells they had heard and they worked. What do you think that said to that child? And do you think the enemy stood by and just watched. He shook with laughter and glee knowing that he had another one.
I have had to work through the horror of realizing that these demomic cults that are being raised up all over the world, truly believe in their master satan. They will die for him and for each other, being told that hell is heaven and that heaven is hell. They are so programmed and warped in their thinking and convinced of what they believe they will die for their cause. They will kill and destroy anything and anyone in their path, that will cause satans purposes to not be fulfilled in someone, government or in a country etc. They will band together wherever and whenever necessary to "pray." Doesn't matter what time of day or night. Their intercessors and prophets are committed to see Satans Kingdom come on earth. How committed is the Body of Christ?
Well enough said I guess. As you can tell it is a real burden on my heart. As we continue to try and help these girls and children my heart inside continues to cry out, "Papa how long and what is it going to take for the Body of Christ to get organized and be united to the extent of what I am seeing in satans kingdom. And more importantly do we have time?" Its here in the states too. Infact during one of the sessions we had with the girls, they had brought over someone from the states who was teaching them military programming. Scarey or what.
Will we ever be an "Army of One?" I wonder.......
Experiencing Jesus,
Ellie
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Unity
Haven't been on for awhile, shame on me. But during a conversation with my Georgia daughter Julie, she got me thinking. Why are Christians so afraid of the word UNITY?????? Bottom line I guess is commitment to one another. Boy the Satanist have one up on us with that one. They know what true commitment is and they are commiting to the wrong spirit and will give their life for their demonic causes. Now I know, there are alot of you that will read this and be much more capable than I to expound on the word Unity and what it means to you. I would like to share whats on my heart and maybe it will help you or maybe not. Either way here goes.
Back in 1990 I was praying with two friends of mine, Cheryl and Margie. They were awesome intercessors and taught me a great deal about intercession. For one whole summer we got together and prayed for our church and its leaders. During one of those times in Cheryl's kitchen, where we would get the best coffee, I had a vision and in the vision I was giving birth to twins. One was a boy and the other a girl. The boy was healthy and strong, but the girl was sickly and weak. I asked the Lord what the name of the girl was and He said, "Unity and she is very sick", and she looked it. Very small, white and hardly any life in her. I remember being so concerned and worried about her. I then came out of the vision wondering if that was concerning me or the Body of Christ. It was both. OUCH!!! Since then I have remembered that vision many many times and it still affects me the same way. I feel sick to my stomach and despair tried's to set in. Its like whats the use. I'm 62 almost, don't hold that against me, and things are getting much worse than better. Look at the situation in Egypt? Gods word said there shall be wars and rumors of wars. Look at our own nation. Frightening isn't it? It is for me. I have 12 grandchildren that I worry about them growing up in this world. What is going to become of them and all the teaching that they are getting from schools, tv, the media? I can so remember hearing my mom and dad talking to friends and relatives and saying what are our children going to grow up in? As I look at the world situations now, I say you have got to be kidding me. Things when I was growing up were never as bad as today. Its so much worse. But I have a sense they saw what was coming.
Even back when I was growing up, unity was almost a swear word and I hardly heard it. In churches that we would go to, there was always for the most part, some kind of situation going on where people wouldn't see eye to eye. Then you would hear that the church had become divided and that the enemy had conquered and destroyed another place of worship. I can remember how scary and sad I felt when I would hear that. Know what? It is still scary and makes my heart sad.
I'm sure you have some understanding as to what the word Unity might mean, but let me give it to you again: "The state of being one; oneness. Unity may consist of a simple substance or an existing being as the soul; but usually it consists in a close junction with particle and parts. In Christian theology it is oneness of affection, sentiment or behavior." Whenever I hear the word unity, I think about the tv commercial for the United States Army, where they call it the "Army of One." My son Stephen was deployed to Iraq twice. What little he has told me about his time there and the unit he in, was that everyone no matter what their job description or position, worked as a team, or as an "Army of One."
A shephard will tell you that with his flock of sheep, if one wanders away from the fold by either distraction, fear or just wandering off, that a wolf more than likely will kill it. There's protection in the fold.
Psalms 133 says: 1. Behold how good and how pleasant it is for brethern to dwell together in unity. 2. It is like the precious ointment upon the head, that ran down the beard, even Aarons beard, that went down to the skirts of his garments. Selah!
Tomorrow I'm going to talk somemore about this unity, but in another culture of life that few Christians even know about. Thank you for listening and hope to see you tomorrow.
Experiencing Jesus,
Ellie
o
PS: My son Stephen has a blog also that is well worth reading. Go to stevecommonsense.blogspot.comy consist of a simple
Back in 1990 I was praying with two friends of mine, Cheryl and Margie. They were awesome intercessors and taught me a great deal about intercession. For one whole summer we got together and prayed for our church and its leaders. During one of those times in Cheryl's kitchen, where we would get the best coffee, I had a vision and in the vision I was giving birth to twins. One was a boy and the other a girl. The boy was healthy and strong, but the girl was sickly and weak. I asked the Lord what the name of the girl was and He said, "Unity and she is very sick", and she looked it. Very small, white and hardly any life in her. I remember being so concerned and worried about her. I then came out of the vision wondering if that was concerning me or the Body of Christ. It was both. OUCH!!! Since then I have remembered that vision many many times and it still affects me the same way. I feel sick to my stomach and despair tried's to set in. Its like whats the use. I'm 62 almost, don't hold that against me, and things are getting much worse than better. Look at the situation in Egypt? Gods word said there shall be wars and rumors of wars. Look at our own nation. Frightening isn't it? It is for me. I have 12 grandchildren that I worry about them growing up in this world. What is going to become of them and all the teaching that they are getting from schools, tv, the media? I can so remember hearing my mom and dad talking to friends and relatives and saying what are our children going to grow up in? As I look at the world situations now, I say you have got to be kidding me. Things when I was growing up were never as bad as today. Its so much worse. But I have a sense they saw what was coming.
Even back when I was growing up, unity was almost a swear word and I hardly heard it. In churches that we would go to, there was always for the most part, some kind of situation going on where people wouldn't see eye to eye. Then you would hear that the church had become divided and that the enemy had conquered and destroyed another place of worship. I can remember how scary and sad I felt when I would hear that. Know what? It is still scary and makes my heart sad.
I'm sure you have some understanding as to what the word Unity might mean, but let me give it to you again: "The state of being one; oneness. Unity may consist of a simple substance or an existing being as the soul; but usually it consists in a close junction with particle and parts. In Christian theology it is oneness of affection, sentiment or behavior." Whenever I hear the word unity, I think about the tv commercial for the United States Army, where they call it the "Army of One." My son Stephen was deployed to Iraq twice. What little he has told me about his time there and the unit he in, was that everyone no matter what their job description or position, worked as a team, or as an "Army of One."
A shephard will tell you that with his flock of sheep, if one wanders away from the fold by either distraction, fear or just wandering off, that a wolf more than likely will kill it. There's protection in the fold.
Psalms 133 says: 1. Behold how good and how pleasant it is for brethern to dwell together in unity. 2. It is like the precious ointment upon the head, that ran down the beard, even Aarons beard, that went down to the skirts of his garments. Selah!
Tomorrow I'm going to talk somemore about this unity, but in another culture of life that few Christians even know about. Thank you for listening and hope to see you tomorrow.
Experiencing Jesus,
Ellie
o
PS: My son Stephen has a blog also that is well worth reading. Go to stevecommonsense.blogspot.comy consist of a simple
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